Only Suited to Be Your Lover

Yaxiu froze. Soon, however, he shook his head and said seriously, "You're not allowed to make jokes like that in the future. Words have magic, and what you say can become seeds carelessly sown... Igola used to warn me about that all the time." As he spoke, he gave the goddess's supple curve a swat as a warning. Weise let out a soft gasp as silver ripples washed over her. "I'm not joking," Weise said in a soft, gentle voice. "I realized long ago that we aren't suited to be together... at least not for marriage, only for romance." "Is it because you destroyed Senluo? If you're talking about atonement—" "No, it isn't that." Weise shook her head. "Do you remember when we were by the underground River of Flowing Gold in the Twin Abyss, and I described my ideal life to you?" "I remember," Yaxiu smiled. "Every day the moment I open my eyes, I would see you. After washing up, we'd make breakfast together. In the morning, you'd read in the study while I watched shows beside you. After lunch, we'd go on a date to the library, and after dinner would be our intimate time together—that was when you'd listen to me the most..." "Looking at it now, reality diverges quite a bit from the ideal. At the very least, our intimate time wouldn't be limited to the evenings." He blinked. "It feels like it would start the moment I open my eyes." Weise burst into a giggle and cast a sidelong glance at Yaxiu. "So do you understand now? I'm a very bland, boring person. Even the life I imagined is completely devoid of passion." "I think it's plenty romantic," Yaxiu admitted honestly. "At least there's no work involved—just the thought of coasting through every day eating and waiting to die sounds wonderfully romantic to me." Weise flicked Yaxiu's forehead. "You're a demigod sorcerer now, and in the future, you'll be the Dominating Divine Lord, the supreme of sorcery. Could you have at least some loftier aspirations?" "I feel like handling my love life will take an entire lifetime of lofty aspirations." Yaxiu sighed, half-joking and half-serious. "Besides, look at me—I'm also a very bland, boring person. The peaceful life I seek doesn't have much flair either. Aren't we a perfect match?" Weise countered, "Have you ever known the kind of person who constantly says they detest their current life and yearn for another, yet never changes a thing, sinking deeper and deeper into their present life instead?" Yaxiu paused. "...Are you talking about me?" "You always say you yearn for an ordinary life, yet you stormed the imperial palace for the Witch in Gospel, risked your life for Black Crow and me in Senluo, fought desperately for Feili and the others in All Stars, and now you're about to explore Hell for all of us." Weise reached out a finger to toy with Yaxiu's lips. "If you were truly someone who yearned for ordinary life, you wouldn't have fallen in love with a bunch of troublesome women like us in the first place; and if you were someone who yearned for ordinary life, none of us would have fallen in love with you either." "That's different. Those chaotic messes always came crashing down on my head out of nowhere, so I had no choice but to take risks," Yaxiu argued. "One day I won't have to take risks anymore. When that time comes, the only way I'll ever disturb our peaceful life is by making you all angry." Weise shook her head. "You will definitely take risks, because you care too much about the people you love. You strive so hard to leave everyone without regrets. That's why you couldn't bear to let the Witch become Gospel, and why you couldn't bear to let me die. You clearly could have settled for a passable ending, yet you simply refused to accept it, insisting on chasing miracles." "Is there anything wrong with a sorcerer pursuing miracles?" Yaxiu asked. "Yet people will always have regrets," Weise said. "Just like how you'll never be able to resolve the Sword Princess's regret... You will be tormented by her forever. "And because you care about the people you love, even if you do settle down, your life is destined to be vibrant and colorful. You can tell just from how your close friends are the Deceiver and the necromancer: you respect the hobbies of others, and you can easily share in their joy. The Sword Princess likes watching dramas, and you like watching them too; the Witch likes card games, and you learned how to play cards with her; Vichy hasn't shown any particular hobbies, yet she simply enjoys chatting with you. Even Felix likes sending you selfies. "Haven't you noticed? Even putting romance aside, you are everyone's best friend," Weise said softly. "Looking at you, I can faintly sense just how terrifying the true Observer must be. You might not think it's anything special, but if the Observer consciously utilized this gift, he would be a heart-stealer far more impossible to guard against than a mind sorcerer. "You're too good at uncovering joy in daily life, and you care so much about the feelings of others. Even if your life is quiet, it will never be boring." Her breath grew rapid and shallow. "For instance, right while we're talking about serious matters, you keep... stroking... me..." The goddess suddenly arched her neck, like an instrument drawn tight with strings, about to sing aloud, but Yaxiu blocked her lips in time, melting the melodious song into an entwined, breathless passion. When their lips parted, Weise had unknowingly wrapped her arms around Yaxiu's neck. A faint flush dusted her cheeks, her arched brows and eyes brimming with charm. Her gaze upon Yaxiu was pooling with liquid longing, her voice growing all the more seductive and languid. "Do you truly not have any star you desire?" Yaxiu tilted his head and whispered softly into her ear, "Isn't the brightest star of Senluo right here in my arms?" "Yaxiu, you're becoming more delicious by the day." "You too." "No." Weise shook her head. "I've been standing still all along, still the same boring Silver Lantern. I don't have any hobbies, nor do my emotions ripple over anything. Even reading and studying are just lingering habits... I used to mock you for being an empty vessel, but in truth, I am the empty vessel. Ever since losing my mission to destroy the world, it feels as if I've been emptied out as well. "Do you know? Whenever you share your progress or your discoveries with me, my heart doesn't feel a ripple at all. I can only analyze them for you calmly; your sharing doesn't stir my emotions. If even you are like this to me, the Sword Princess and the others naturally go without saying—unless they're talking about you, I have zero interest in what they think or say. "To use the Sword Princess as an analogy: if you share your thoughts on the same show you both watched, she will discuss it with you with great enthusiasm. But if you share your thoughts on the same book we both read, while I'll discuss it with you, it won't make me happy. "You love finding joy in the ordinary, whereas I'm interested in nothing," Weise said. "That is why I say we are the most mismatched pair." "Isn't that complementary, though?" Yaxiu spread his hands. "You handle the quiet, gentle years, and I handle seeking amusement and pleasure?" Weise pondered for a moment and said, "Suppose interpersonal relationships can be divided into three types. The first type is mutually replenishing energy—this kind of interaction doesn't drain your emotions; instead, it leaves you feeling all the more emotionally energized. The second type neither replenishes nor drains, just ordinary interaction. The third type drains energy—this kind of interaction only drains your emotions until you are utterly exhausted. "During adventurous periods when the pressure to survive is pushed to the limit, you and Vichy are in the first state. What she does best is growing stronger with every setback; the more dire the situation, the more fiery passion bursts from her. But if you switched to a calm, ordinary life, you and Vichy would become the third state—someone like her who chases thrills would continuously deplete your energy. "The Witch is the exact opposite. The greater the pressure to survive, the closer she is to the third state; her volatile emotions constantly demand your attention. But if you can settle down, you and the Witch can enter the first state—she yearns far too much to live a peaceful life with you. "As for the Sword Princess..." Weise sighed softly. "Even if the rest of us have our grievances with her, we have to admit that she is your most suitable partner. Whether in prosperity or adversity, whether during adventures or in peace, the two of you are always in the first state of interaction. Even if there are quarrels and awkwardness, you can both quickly resolve each other's feelings, and the occasional friction only deepens your relationship." "Then what about you?" Yaxiu asked. "It depends," Weise said. "If you are only with me, that would be the third state. Whether you are joyful or sorrowful, excited or afraid, I cannot truly empathize with you, and can only ever respond with calm detachment. "Once or twice is fine; three or four times is bearable. But if you never receive reciprocal emotional feedback, your passion will wear thin, your love will fade, and in the end, it is bound to conclude with you resenting and abandoning me." Yaxiu stared at her blankly, seemingly at a loss. "Is there really nothing that can stir your emotions?" "There is," Weise smiled. "Aren't you doing it right now? "The only thing that can stir my emotions is making love with you." She rested against Yaxiu's shoulder and whispered softly, "Only you can make the silver light burn blazing hot. "I never intended to be your only one; I only want to be your favorite. My offer to help build your harem wasn't a lie against my own heart. Even if you truly liked only me, I wouldn't mind if you sought out other girls. Only by replenishing energy from others can you fill an abyss like me. "Therefore," Weise murmured into Yaxiu's ear, "I'm not suited to be your wife. I'm only suited to be your lover." Yaxiu was left thoroughly dazed by her words. He kissed her first to calm himself down. Weise giggled softly. "Well? Don't you feel I'm much more suited to be your favorite than the Sword Princess? I don't mind in the least if you become a promiscuous trash can." Yaxiu felt a little exasperated. "I told you the news that the Observer and the Mirror Demon were once married because you're staying behind in Senluo, and I wanted to make you believe we'll definitely end up together in the end. Yet here you are, making my feelings so complicated... I just wanted to make you happy. "In a few days we'll reach the Silent Spiral. Is there anything else I can do for you? Anything at all." The bespectacled goddess blinked, looking at Yaxiu with a curious, peculiar gaze. "Truly anything?" Yaxiu paused, then turned his head away and pressed his lips tight. After a long, agonized struggle, he nodded with an expression of going to his death: "Your true body will have to stay in Senluo from now on, and who knows when we'll be able to visit Senluo next... Before everything is settled, this might be our only chance to meet your true body. "I... could try discussing it with the Sword Princess." Seeing Yaxiu summoning all his courage while his body visibly trembled, Weise couldn't help bursting into laughter, wrapping her arms around him and shaking with mirth. Lines of black crossed Yaxiu's face. "Didn't you say your emotions don't fluctuate?" "You are the sole exception." Weise wiped away a tear of laughter, her eyes brimming with amusement. "You can always create so many exceptions for me. Alright, alright, I won't snatch what belongs to the Sword Princess. Even if you aren't afraid of dying, I am." Silver Lantern smiled. "Seeing that you're willing to stand up to the Sword Princess for me is enough to satisfy me completely. When you see my true body, giving me a hug will be enough—and after hugging me, you must leave immediately. Don't linger under any circumstances." "Why?" Yaxiu grew serious. "Is there danger?" "Very dangerous, because if you hold me a little longer, I might not be able to resist slipping into your soul kingdom of heaven and leaving with you," Weise said with a completely straight face. "You know how fatal your charm is to me." "Can I give you a kiss?" "You can, but only once." "I feel like when the time comes, I might not be able to restrain myself..." "Then kiss me to your heart's content right now." Weise pecked Yaxiu's lips, but as Yaxiu leaned in to kiss her back, she pressed her fingers against his lips. Under his bewildered gaze, Silver Lantern kept her eyes locked on his, while her body slid down like a serpent until her hands took hold of his belt, and her pearly teeth clamped onto his zipper. *Zzzp.*